Stuck In Between

So I’ve been here a month and I’ve been wanting to mention this, so I’ll do this now.. But I feel like I’m starting to transition into not knowing where I fit in anymore. I don’t feel like an extreme tourist anymore, even though I still have so much left to see (but even people that live in there city hasn’t seen everything right?). And I know I’m not a native Parisian. But starting to have a routine and this being my home and daily life, I’m just in a transition. Now I don’t know if I could really live back home comfortably because don’t get me wrong, I love everyone there, but Paris just has so much more to offer than Buffalo. The 3000 years of history kinda helps.  But I know I’m not actually from here. The best was a couple of days ago some tourists asked me where they were. ME! They picked me! This means I’m not the super clueless one anymore! They asked me in slow French if they were in the Latin Quarter. So I even responded to them in English. Haha. I don’t know why I did that, maybe because that’s what French people do to me. I don’t feel snobbish, just proud that I know where things are now and that I don’t get lost every two seconds (at least on the left bank, the right bank is another story).

I know this is a natural feeling of studying abroad, I just don’t want to leave this place. I know I have 3 more months and that’s a long time, but I just don’t know. Paris has become so comfortable to me so easily, it’s a little weird and scary. I don’t know why I feel so comfortable in a large city. I think it’s might be because it’s so low to the ground that it doesn’t feel like a big city and I have friends here and a routine. It also makes me feel better now that I started to get the hang of customs and politeness, like saying hello and good bye to people in the elevator.

Don’t worry everyone, I will be coming home in May and I’m so excited to see you all already! I think I just don’t want to come home yet because one: I’ve only been here a month and two: the weather is still really crappy at home and it’s SOOO much nicer and spring-ier here. Love you and miss you all! <3